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IM SORRY DEAR BLOG FOR ABANDONING YOU

2010-12-15T20:15:00.001+08:00

I'm alive , but I'm abandoning my blog .
I've got a lot of things to say but ...

Goodbye for now or forever ?

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY DEAREST ME XOXO

2010-11-16T23:23:00.091+08:00

I'm NINETEEN !

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Celebrated the anniversary of my escape from the womb today . Can't be all bad ... since research clearly shows that people who have more birthdays live longer . I wanna thank all friends who wished me a Happy Birthday . For the rest of you ; I now know who will I take time for when it is your birthday .

While waiting to meet FromDe Heart's lady whom I forgot her name , Hafez Raihan texted me ...

Hafez : Woi.. Kat maner??
Me : Woodlands . Why ?
Hafez : Tak ajak.. How's your birthday coming along?
Me : Nk kena ajak ? Okayy , jom ! Tsk . Okayy I guess ? Meet Teera only , never really celebrate =/ Where youu ?
Hafez : Behind you..
Me : -_-
Hafez : Haiz tak caye lak
Me : Turned around and I nearly got a heart attack *
Hafez : Percaye skarang

Thanks Teera Azmian and Hafez Raihan for the surprising surprise !

FUCK IS A RESPONSE FOR EVERYTHING NOW

2010-11-14T23:43:00.001+08:00

I know the truth now
I know who you are
and I don't love you
anymore .

And after a while , you learn that you don't need anyone else in order to survive . No one is ever going to always be there , no matter what they say or what they promise you . You just gotta suck it up , accept it .

For once I just wish that someone , completely and truly understood what I’m going through , instead of just saying it .

HAPPY HALLOWEEN 2010 TRICK-OR-TREATS

2010-10-31T23:12:00.059+08:00

Happy Halloween 2010 !

On a side note - I've finally got a new job , as a Part Time Retail Associate at Uniqlo ION Orchard , and I'll be starting work tomorrow ! Anyways , wish me luck people !

4 : 06 : 58 : 17 TIL ADAM'S RETURN ♥

2010-10-24T17:01:00.010+08:00

Next week :

Monday - I have PD and FYP meeting with my advisor at 1:00 PM , and an Interview at Uniqlo ION Orchard at 4:30 PM and I really hope I'll get the job because my current job doesn't make me happy .

Tuesday - 3rd lesson of Interactive Entertainment ; I start school at 9:45 AM and end at 4:15 PM .

Wednesday - I'm sure there is still a lot for me to do for my PD . Please be nice , Wednesday .

Thursday - Last day of school for the week and it is the day of the PD Submission .

Friday - EMP Halloween Party 2010 at Agora Hall 3 with dearest schoolmates ; Adam is coming back to Singapore from Aussie ♥

Saturday - Aizad's 17th Birthday Party at Pasir Ris Costa Sands .

Sunday - I’m gonna sit in and just have fun at home . Watched a few movies and prepare for the next week .

I’m pretty packed for the week and hopefully , I won’t tire myself out that easily because it will be wasted . Though my Sunday was laid back , I pretty much did enjoy because there is no work today . And I am counting down for Friday .

I don't know what to wear tomorrow .

4 : 06 : 58 : 17

til Adam's return ♥ I just need your xoxo to make me feel better , dear .

8 : 02 : 40 : 56 TIL ADAM'S RETURN ♥

2010-10-20T21:19:00.010+08:00

Monday : Ayim , Erman , Ika , Suhaira , Yaniee and I had an impromptu meet up which we all had Roti Prata for tea break because Yaniee was craving for it . Abang was nice enough to fetch me after school in return that I tried to help him regarding his lappy .

P.s: Don't mind the quality . It's taken using Suhaira's Polaroid , so she'd have to scan it before uploading .

P.p.s: That was tha first time I pillion(ed) Abang's Hayabusa , ever since he bought it last December o.O

Tuesday : I was supposed to go to school with Teera but I overslept . Met up with Bali , Sharina , Wene and Yasin after class and sat at Food Haven Food Court while waiting for Bali and Sharina to finish their meals before I went back home .

Wednesday : Instead of going out , I am at home . Right now , I'm very bored watching TV . I am full from Nasi Ayam and Mee Goreng . What am I suppose to do now ? Hmm . I miss you .

Tomorrow will be Thursday and the following day is TGIF . I might be meeting Teera on Friday , Suhaira and Erman on Saturday, and Sunday , it is another !@#$%^&*() day because I'll be working .

08 : 02 : 40 : 56

til Adam's return ♥ I fucking miss you .

9 : 14 : 19 : 39 TIL ADAM'S RETURN ♥

2010-10-19T21:40:00.016+08:00

I'm at home with Mama . I think I might be doing today's RJ later , insya'Allah . Cos' right now , I feel tired and lazy . Alright lovelies , I wanna Facebook and watch sinetron . Ttyl .

9 : 14 : 19 : 39
til Adam's return ♥ I nak kisses , boleh ?

TIME TO PUT BACK MY LIFE TOGETHER NOW

2010-10-18T23:59:00.016+08:00

I don’t know what's your damn problem , but honestly , I think you're really fucked up . It's a new week , and today is the Monday . Good night , lovelies . Now , I feel fucked up !

AWESOMELY BORED REALLY REALLY BORED

2010-10-17T18:33:00.003+08:00

Suhaira's & mine ♥
P.s: Awesomeszxc impromptu towning with Baby Girl and Braces Boy on Friday evening .

I got too many things up in my mind and I really don’t know how to put it in words but just to vent it as and when I like it . Something is missing inside me . And as time pass by , I’m beginning to feel very fuck up . Where are you when I need you ? Imysm . Come back soon .

P.p.s : I have a Formspring . Go ask me questions lahh . So I can layan and not be this bored .

MISSING YOU HAS BECOME MY DAILY THING

2010-10-16T02:11:00.020+08:00

Adam Cantello owes me my hugs and kisses because he made me miss him fucking much !

I LOVE PIERCINGS BUT IM AFRAID OF BLOOD

2010-10-15T23:21:00.005+08:00

I thought of closing up my left eyebrow piercing and pierce my right eyebrow . I got the left pierced 11 days ago but it got swollen because I didn't apply antiseptic despite knowing that I have sensitive skin . So I thought of having the right done to please myself and once the left is recovered , I shall close up the right and pierce the left again . Does that sound good ?

I WISHED THAT VOODOO DOLLS WERE REAL

2010-10-13T12:29:00.015+08:00

Too many things going on , and I have a handful of stuff to clear off . I wonder why shits keep popping out . It's like I ain’t given peace at all . Fuck this shit , I’ve had enough . Them mother fuckers ain’t got any idea what I’m going through because all they’re thinking are shinning lights . I hate this fucked up situation and why must this October be a damn bitch ?

THIS HEART ACTUALLY HURTS RIGHT NOW

2010-10-12T20:59:00.025+08:00

Hi , anyone who is kind enough to entertain me ? I’m really bored . Speaking of which , I’m pretty much upset about today because … I don’t wanna talk about it . Someone call me or text me please because twin sister's busy with her boyfriend ... and I miss her so badly . Sigh .

YOU BETTER THINK WHAT'S IMPORTANT IN LIFE

2010-10-10T11:16:00.020+08:00

One day , you're going to choke on your own nasty words .
On that day , everyone you've hurt will be at peace .

I'm busy ... counting my blessings .
P.s : People who talk about other people's lives , clearly don't have one of their own .

MISS YOU LIKE THE DESERTS MISS THE RAIN

2010-09-14T20:30:00.038+08:00

Why tell me so many lies then leave me with one million sighs ? You promised me a lifetime but then you went and left . Please don't come back into my life , now I'm happy without you .

P.s : You made me miss you , Kid Renovatio ♥

IM TANGLED IN MY OWN CONFUSE WORLD

2010-09-07T20:38:00.040+08:00

I'm a Sexy Bitch that stalked Dougie Poynter on the beach

I'm bored ! I'm supposed to be mugging for Concepts of Persuasion UT3 occurring later morning at 0830 hours but I can't seem to get a thing into this brain . Ehh Irfan mane nie ?

IM THRILLED I CANT STRESS THAT ENOUGH

2010-09-04T22:40:00.000+08:00

Side note : Muhd Irfan ,
don't you have anything better to do than be in my mind all day and night ?

Xoxo

I SHALL KEEP YOU FOREVER & FOR ALWAYS

2010-09-02T21:33:00.006+08:00

Minnie needs Mickey . Tigger needs Pooh . Patrick needs Sponge Bob . I need You .

Sorry Riena post gambar Irfan muke buruk . Tapi tetap comel lahh . Heheh .

If I could reach up and hold a star for every time you make me smile , the entire evening sky would be in the palm of my hand . Thank you for making me smile . Thank you for making me laugh . Thank you for being that nice person , Muhd Irfan .

(I) am (L)ucky t(o) ha(v)e a fri(e)nd like yo(u)

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH

IM TIRED OF HAVING TO BE STRONG ALONE

2010-08-14T23:47:00.009+08:00

Sometimes it is easier to keep your mouth shut than to tell people what you are feeling and risk the feeling of being hurt and the disappointment .

I just miss the way how things used to be .

I WILL BE MISSING YOU MY EX SWEETIE PIE

2010-08-12T22:11:00.000+08:00

Dear Hilmi ,

It has been a while since the last day together , but for me it seems like years . I never thought that the end of all our moments of love , deep and passionately emotions , our memories , our smiles , our fights , every sweet and salt moment , falling tears , hurts and delights between us , would have an end like this . I never thought I will miss you this much .

I remember every piece of the story ... The first date . The first night . The first kiss . So deep . But that kiss will be lately the most meaningful thing of my life . Your smile put me out of dark . I used to love you more than everything . But now the time has just stopped . It happened just when I was changing its direction to make it never stop . To start over and over again . It was the fault of my hands . I was thinking of you and forgot to be careful . I tried to glue the pieces together again but it does not work . Everything is so broken . I am broken . The kiss has gone . The smile is now only a memory . You left forever . Love is gone .

All I have from you now is only a picture . It reminds me of our happy times together . It is the smile you always used to give me . If I could only for one moment see you smile at me again ... If I could have that kiss one more time … But I know that is not going to happen . I still keep reminding the sweet of your kisses , the smile that gave me life and I keep hoping I will find you somewhere , before that feeling melts forever . You have been my strongest emotion , my deepest thoughts , my sweetest dream , my meaning , my love , my paradise . I wish I could hold you in my arms just for one last moment like before . I wish you were here .

Thanks for giving me the pleasure of loving you and being my everything , even for a while ...

Yours Truly .

NATIONAL DAY PARADE '10 AT THE PADANG

2010-08-10T23:34:00.243+08:00

The time to relax is when you do not have time for it .

So I took the risk to skip lesson this afternoon despite understanding the importance of this last presentation for CME that makes up a percentage of the total UT3 grade for this said module . The muscle cramps I had this morning due to the celebration last night caused me to be reluctant to attend school but there is nothing that could express the fun I had during NDP 2010 . Not forgetting the most happening part for the night that had to be the Bloco Singapura performing at their holding area after it all had ended besides dragging the four of us into the center ground as part of them due to sighting us dancing along to their beats .

Things got a little chaotic at that point of time after dismissal due to the different plans of meeting the different clans but I decided to be the good cousin and met Huda instead . Gordon suggested to chill out together since I complained to him that I neither get to see nor bump into him at the Padang earlier on and he asked to call up on the rest in the team to join us too . So I hang around near Starbucks Coffee Citylink Mall to meet Sabrina and some of the Chinese girls in our team before confirming the place to meet Gordon but he came up to surprise me instead for I did not remember that he had initiated to slack there .

I swear you have the cutest smile ever - that is why you are my cute boy ♥
and thanks for the treat , Sgt Lange !

I WILL UPDATE THE TITLE FOR THIS POST

2010-08-04T21:18:00.007+08:00

09/08/2010 : National Day Parade
10/08/2010 : Creative Media Enterprise Presentation
11/08/2010 : Final Year Project Midpoint Submission
12/08/2010 : Design Studio Presentation
13/08/2010 : Last Day of School

as of 04/08/2010

I'm busy . You're ugly .
Have a good night !

SKYPING WITH MY SWEETIE PIE LOVER BOY

2010-07-23T23:52:00.032+08:00

Skyping with my sweetie pie lover boy ; Imi Ricosta ♥

WHEN YOU HOLD ME TIGHT NEVER LET GO

2010-07-15T21:45:00.001+08:00

someone requested that i post something about him due to not posting about our first date that night but i guess im off to bed soon since he ditched me an hour ago for falling asleep .

Get well soon , my sweetie pie lover boy ; Imi Ricosta ♥
esok kalauu jumpe i tkmu lambat dua jam lagikk okayy dear ?

May your dad have a successful operation , Ridwan .

WHERE IS THE FAIRNESS IN THIS MY DEAR

2010-07-13T19:11:00.003+08:00

I got to have youu for a night ... somewhere , I should be contented with that .
But I'm not - she gets to spend tha rest of her life with youu & I got a few hours .

NEVER KNEW HOW FAR BEHIND I LEFT YOU

2010-07-09T22:55:00.022+08:00

Youu have been my life & I never planned growing old without youu

Shadows bleeding through tha light where tha love once shined so bright came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight , Love's not always black & white ...

Haven't I always loved youu

IF YOU GIVE ME A CHANCE I CAN LOVE YOU

2010-07-08T21:47:00.065+08:00

there are endless of assignments to be done but im dead tired to tha extend of abandoning all those things for tha night despite understanding that deadlines are nearing . meetings till late for tha past nights due to tha need to rush on our project since tha team isnt progressing but that just multiplies tha exhaustion till it made me to not contribute a single thing .

side note : my sweetie pie lover boy is coming back tomorrow night ♥

WANT IT MORE WHEN YOU CANT HAVE IT

2010-06-26T23:56:00.201+08:00

tired much from tha second NDP Rehearsal at Padang but i still had an amazing time being around tha RP3 cliques though some shits happened till i couldnt hold back tha tears that i cried at one point of time during tha rehearsal . situation got a little messed up tha moment he got back from his outfield in tha afternoon but he still attempts to iron out those problems despite me being such a nuisance that adds up to his tiredness aside from not understanding him .

♂ no matter what i dun wane separate wif eu in what ever situation
i tkk pernah de niat nk lukakn hati eu

i dont hate youu for loving her ,
nor do i hate her for receiving tha love i wanted ,
but i hate youu for ~~pretending to care for~~ caring about me .

3 THINGS - MISS YOU MISS YOU & MISS YOU

2010-06-25T23:50:00.043+08:00

im sorry for not listening to youu . come back soon . much missed .

EFF - YOUU - SEE - KAY - WHY - OH - YOUU

2010-06-03T23:50:00.040+08:00

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Your opinions of me were wrong - I am not that bad .
My opinions of youu were wrong too - youu were not all that great .

SORRY TO IGNORE THANKS FOR ALL THAT

2010-06-01T12:15:00.412+08:00

tha start of this term break hasnt been a good one for me - it sucks that im beginning to take things to heart at times that arent supposed to be happening as i tend to get too emotional about it till i choose to ignore people to refrain from letting out anger at them .

im grateful enough that dearest Ellepee Bee & lil brother still care about me to tha extend of cheering me up to make me feel better & apologies to Teera for not helping out to get those Likes but congrats still for being tha lead in that Ashbury Model Search May 2010 .

I WILL UPDATE THE TITLE FOR THIS POST

2010-05-26T20:50:00.093+08:00

i intended to post a short but detailed update then that sarcastic facilitator for Concepts of Persuasion module replied tha email i sent about three hours ago . that means i need to get his assignment done since there is no excuse to be not doing it for tha third time . also not to forget to prepare for tha upcoming test on this module once im done due to those endless resources to be read .

JUST LOVE ME OR PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE

2010-05-22T05:27:00.000+08:00

four more hours to tha usual NDP Rehearsal at ITE Simei but im still not asleep despite complaining about feeling damn tired from last morning class field trip . thanks to that dearest him for popping in out of tha blue for it is causing me to reminisce our past much as i tried to forget about us after all those shits happened four months ago or so .

CME LESSON AT SINGAPORE ARTS MUSEUM

2010-05-21T18:50:00.169+08:00

im dead tired from tha class field trip to Singapore Arts Museum earlier this morning for Creative Media Enterprise module due to all that touring around tha different galleries . great thing that Hafez Raihan managed to be up upon getting tha message i sent as for that he accompanied me throughout tha class field trip since i got bored due to it turning out to be like another mundane lesson in class - from sharing about tha dream i had last night to a topic regarding sex that led to him planning to go clubbing together .

MISS THE WAY YOU HELD ME & MY HEART

2010-05-09T22:35:00.010+08:00

maybe he is doing tha same thing as me
maybe he wants so bad to call me but just wont because i havent called him
then again maybe i shouldnt fill myself with false hope that
he might just be missing me like im missing him

f u c k .

WILL I EVER SEE YOU SMILING BACK AT ME

2010-05-08T20:59:00.002+08:00

Nothing’s gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I’ll never ask for more than your love
Nothing’s gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing’s gonna change my love for you

IMY

SINGAPORE 48 HOUR FILM PROJECT DONE

2010-05-07T23:29:00.003+08:00

tha Singapore 48 Hour Film Project has come to an end but it left some us to be arguing or finding faults in one another due to our team getting disqualified during tha last ten minutes or so for failing to submit our film on time . those good & bad times that each of us faced throughout tha production sure did cause us to be disappointed that Rough Sketch Production didnt manage to get into tha competition but it sure is an honour that our film is going to be screened for others to be entertained .

[P]D FY[P] IE[P] 48HF[P] ND[P] FUCK LAHH

2010-04-28T23:06:00.006+08:00

From +6597584634
Hi! This is a reminder that tomorrow, there will be a compulsory briefing NDP briefing at 4.15pm at LT W5! Please be there! Please refer to your email! Do not reply to this number.

Hambali Hanafiah Hi guys we'll have an fyp meeting tmrw immediately after class ends. It's time to get serious so i urge you guys to watch A LOT of short films. We need to get our storyline done. Reply me if you can or can't make it.

Portfolio Development • Final Year Project • Industry Experience Programme
48 Hour Film Project • National Day Parade

I'm busy . You're ugly . Awesomeszxc ~

YOU WILL FIND NOBODY BETTER THAN ME

2010-04-24T18:17:00.000+08:00

got so fucked up during tha lesson last afternoon on tha module Creative Media Enterprise due to that demanding facilitator but getting to meet Adlee Blake after school just made me feel so much better excluding tha part that he left me alone for something else . canceled tha initial plan to see tha doctor together since both of us are sick but that clinic has closed tha moment that meeting regarding tha film project competition ended . had to cancel tha another plan to go to that shop of his friend too since im still feeling a little uncertain about getting a tattoo so he suggested to just chill around opposite his block till around nine before he left . he initiated to meet up again tonight to make up for his un - gentleman side of ditching me last night but i couldnt though im missing him but there are just abundance of things for me to complete .

I WILL UPDATE THE TITLE FOR THIS POST

2010-04-20T23:07:00.005+08:00

im not boasting about my grade but i just miss sharing with him regarding my progress in school & making him proud of me .

I WILL UPDATE THE TITLE FOR THIS POST

2010-04-19T22:47:00.071+08:00

im gonna sleep real soon because i hate rushing for lesson that starts at eight or nine in tha morning then spending about 20 bucks on cab fare due to falling back asleep after tha alarm goes off . this block mode thing is such a trouble that i need to be up so much earlier than usual but better still in such that school lasts for just four hours instead of normal eight hours .

ADLEE BLAKE / BOY IS BACK ARK ARK ARK

2010-04-16T11:42:00.271+08:00

From Hafez Raihan
Your boyfriend coming out today. Hehe

16/04/2010 ; 09:35
From Hafez Raihan
Your boyfriends here.

16/04/2010 ; 12:40

it sure feels great to be tha first person getting that information regarding his release from DB this afternoon after about a month or so he has been in there besides being tha first person to talk to him that made me feel kinda special . sexcited much about his return but i couldnt meet him though since i had to rush off to settle some stuff soon after tha lesson has ended about 30 minutes later than it is supposed to end .

matrep ex Boyyfriend is back . i miss youu Adlee Blake . ark ark ark ~

FRESHMEN ORIENTATION PROGRAMME '10

2010-04-14T23:53:00.098+08:00

orientation for those freshies has come to an end so this means that school is starting in about eight hours time for me but lesson gonna last for just four hours as there is a slight change in tha timing . Jam & Hop isnt that happening for me unlike those past ones - thanks Capoeira hot dude for ditching me in an abrupt manner =(

shots shots shots shots shots shots
shots shots shots shots shots
shots shots shots shots shots

SO WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND

2010-04-13T23:14:00.043+08:00

Ayie Spade Monster Satsat Dragon » U say u come. Whr u? Cheat my feelings
Riena Purpur Princess Satsat Kitten » i come what . i saw youu ! but youu didnt see me =(

... thanks for tha hugs my Capoeira hot dude <3

ALWAYS MISSING OUT ON THE FUN TIMES

2010-04-10T23:48:00.142+08:00

i regret canceling tha plan last night to Zouk aside from rejected those dudes due to tha need to finish up on some designs before this internship period of mine ends for there is no one else in tha office to do it . i could be bumping into Sham again but i clean forgotten about that so i chose to drop that idea instead since i needed to be at tha studio around nine this morning .

Hafez asked me along to Zirca tonight since i couldnt join them for tha camp due to tha internship but im so fagged out after 1234567890 hours at tha studio for Knockout shooting .

♂ Hahahaha. Open relationship sayang. tak kluar tonight?
♀ i know lahh . just asking what ~ cannot uhh ? jealous ya ' know . ehh tk lahh . hehs . aru abes work lorr .
♂ Hahahaha. You got adlee ma. He coming out soon. Think next week.
♀ he got girls keliling pinggang lorr . dont want uhh .
♂ Serious?! What the hell. He damn pathetic lah
♀ its obvious what . he got tha playboy look . tsk . where youu now ?
♂ Playboy? Hes the most kental in my camp lah. Wtf wtf wtf. Im heading dwn to zirca
♀ but he doesnt look kental to me . haha . wahh youu not tired uhh back from camp then go enjoy .
♂ Im his sergeant what. I know lah. He damn kental nyer. I scold him he scared lei. Kental ah tuh! Hahaha.

side note : Happy 3rd Birthday , Nur Lylia Natasha !

MY FEAR OF LOSING YOU HAS COME TRUE

2010-04-03T23:33:00.048+08:00

supposedly 17th Months of Knowing & 1st Anniversary -
i wish our hearts could come together as one .

SO THE HEART WAS MADE TO BE BROKEN

2010-04-02T23:59:00.046+08:00

He said , " I didn't mean to break your heart . "
But before he could finish , I replied with ...
" I didn't mean to fall in love either but it's OK -
we all make mistake . "

goodbye my lover , goodbye my friend ;
youu have been tha ~~wan~~ one , youu have been tha ~~wan~~ one for me .

MEMORY ITSELF IS AN INTERNAL RUMOUR

2010-04-01T23:11:00.067+08:00

it has been a year since this blog of mine exists though at times i got tha urge to delete it in hoping that it could be of some help for me to not reminisce tha past . fuck my life .

side note : 4 days off from work - Wahh SHIOK man !

LET ME LIVE THIS LIFE AS HOW I WANT IT

2010-03-28T01:55:00.063+08:00

7 Tips to Forget Your Ex Boyfriend
Are youu going through a break up with a boyfriend ? This situation can affect your mind , body & soul in a bad way if youu were once madly in love with him . Try to be with people who really care about youu & can understand your emotions . Youu need to be mentally strong when in this situation . If youu have tha right people around youu then it can ease out tha situation a bit . If youu are really determined to forget your ex boyfriend it should not be too painful if your mind is made up .

(1) Youu should not be alone after tha break up . Try to be in group of friends . When youu are alone youu will think & ask whyy tha breakup happened over & over again & thus making youu feel worse . Youu should go & seek tha company of good friends whom youu have not seen or contact for a long time now .

(2) Other thing that is a must to do is cleaning up all tha things which remind youu of your past . It includes books , gifts , cards , dresses or anything . Throw all these things away . When he is no longer in your life then whyy should these things remain around youu ?

(3) Another good tip is to make yourself as busy as youu can so your mind is never idle to think about him . Tha best thing youu should do to forget your ex boyfriend is to work hard & succeed in your career , studies or business . Hard work is never wasted . Please remember youu would surely get rewards for tha hard work youu do .

(4) Youu should take care of your eating pattern as well . People react differently in these situations . Some people start eating junk food & some people lose all their appetite . Youu should take healthy food in these times . In a healthy body only good thoughts can come . Please make sure youu take your meals timely & not forgetting taking good nutritious diet .

(5) Another good way to forget your ex boyfriend is through doing exercise . Exercising is a good way of keeping yourself busy & it takes out all frustration as well & at tha same way youu would also be making yourself fit . Youu can go for aerobics or exercise at tha gyms , jogging or swimming .

(6) Good honey is like food of tha soul . Youu should listen to soothing music which can make youu feel at calm & peace . Youu can even start partying with your friends or youu can go on trips or long drive . Just do what youu like to do & which makes youu feel happy & feel being single once more .

(7) To forget your ex boyfriend means youu should not expect any calls from him on your mobile . Please keep your mobile away . Never try to contact him again otherwise youu will end up worsening tha situation .

TELAH KU UKIR WAJAHMU DALAM HATI KU

2010-03-25T05:24:00.003+08:00

Specially Dedicated to Mohamad Ridwan

Moving on is simple , it is what youu leave behind that makes it so difficult .

LOOK IN MY HEART & YOU WILL FIND YOU

2010-03-14T22:32:00.000+08:00

Dear Soul ,

I have a problem - My head is saying fool forget him but my heart is saying do not let go . My feet want to run to him and his arms want to hold me close . I do not know how to say this correctly or even if it is true but I wish he only knew ... that I do love him too !

Yours Truly .

BUSY WITH INTERNSHIP TILL EARLY APRIL

2010-03-13T19:55:00.297+08:00

Happy 20th Birthday El Fadyle & Fathul Hakim !

i didnt got tha time to update this friggin blog since i started out on that internship as an intern production assistant under Hoods Inc Productions earlier this month . damn hectic schedule but thank goodness there is no production going on for tha time being .

i thought youu'd always be mine

VIBES WHITEOUT AT CLUB NOVA TONIGHT

2010-02-27T12:12:00.001+08:00

busy with tha preparations for
BONNIE & CLYDE'S ENGAGEMENT CEREMONY TOMORROW

i missed Vibes 2009 which was held last December at Club Nova that was organised by Electronic Music Production & im gonna miss Vibes Whiteout too which would be held later tonight at Club Nova again that is organised by Electronic Music Production also .

I WILL UPDATE THE TITLE FOR THIS POST

2010-02-20T17:15:00.046+08:00

Me guess what ? someone came up to me & drew me . hehs .
Wan Farel Awh. Hehe because you so sweet today.

I WILL UPDATE THE TITLE FOR THIS POST

2010-02-19T23:13:00.014+08:00

one moment he is being such a nice dude then a minute later he could transit into being such a useless rascal . so he called me three this morning to ask for help again apart from making things clear regarding Drea Filaini .

ALL GOOD THINGS WILL COME TO AN END

2010-02-15T15:49:00.002+08:00

sometimes i feel bad for ditching him at times he needs me despite tha manner he treated me last time that could be considered as heartless aside from tha lies he told . he pampered me last afternoon initiating to meet up then go out together due to sensing that i felt kinda dejected but i dumped him instead to celebrate tha occasion of that someone turning older soon .

LOVE ME LOVE ME SAY THAT YOU LOVE ME

2010-02-14T14:17:00.003+08:00

A unique love story told in a day but spanned a year - Hanging By A Thread centers on Netasher ( Azuin De Cruz ) , a modern girl with tha rare sensibility of believing that if two people are meant to be together , they would end up together no matter how long they are apart . She & Rafael ( Fazli Jamil ) are tha perfect couple ... until something happened to Netasher . How will this love story pans out ?

Happy Valentine's Day !
If you love somebody , let them go . If they return , they are always yours. If they do not , they never were .

&iloveyouustillexboyyfriend!

LOVE WITH ALL THAT YOU HAVE & MORE

2010-02-13T16:41:00.074+08:00

erratic moments that im struggling in at this current period of time due to another problem that subsists before tha other is settled or at least half straightened out . so its gonna be a month since our relationship ended but i suppose things should be going on just fine till he messaged me this morning stating that he should stop contacting me due to me claiming that its impossible for us to be back together . he chose to break things up again but on tha other hand happened that this other dude has patched things up regarding us till he has been treating me kinda better than last time so as to assure me i guess .

supposed to be meeting that matrep around four plus but something cropped up at tha last minute . i couldnt contact him either since his handphone is being such a friggin pain in tha asdfghjkl ass till he got irritated that he flinged it off last night .

shisha session with Zakiy & friends later ?
now , where tha eff is dear Rafa'el ?

I WILL UPDATE THE TITLE FOR THIS POST

2010-02-12T18:52:00.002+08:00

been burning tha midnight oil for tha past nights till i couldnt find tha time to update this friggin blog but at least im a little stress free for this short period of time since there is neither test nor school aside from that frikken asdfghjkl portfolio shit .

YOU ARE STILL WHO I AM THINKING OF BOY

2010-02-05T23:57:00.041+08:00

You were there to light my day ; you were there to guide me through . When my days down & out , I’ll never stop thinking of you . How can I forget all that , when you’re the one who made me smile . You'll always be a part of me , how I wish you were still mine . Never will forget the day , how we’ve met & came this far . We both know we got this feeling but somehow it has to end up here . I know it’s me who said goodbye & that’s the hardest thing to do , cause you mean so much to me & that’s the truth from me to you . For all the things I've done & said ; for all the hurt that I’ve caused you ... I hope you will forgive me baby cause that wasn’t what I meant to do ...

& love is like lightning ; you get struck once & baby , it k i l l s !
it's getting harder and harder to cry while holding back tears & smile when my heart is breaking ...

UNHAPPY 15TH MONTHS OF KNOWING YOU

2010-02-03T23:50:00.142+08:00

its ten more minutes to midnight but im still struggling on this Doodle for Google Competition stupid shit that should be included as part of tha Portfolio for presentation during lesson later morning . i guess im burning out tha night to complete all this damn art thing but dear Rafael has been asking me to get some rest since im feeling kinda sick due to all these Expression of Form Portfolio craps . i so feel like abandoning all these stuff though .

Happy 15th Months of Knowing Youu , Mohamad Ridwan !
I always knew looking back on tears would make me laugh but I never knew looking back on laughs would make me cry .

LAST SCENES FOR LAST MINUTE PRODUCTION

2010-01-27T22:42:00.133+08:00

been going home kinda later than usual each night till im feeling quite sick for not getting neither sufficient rest nor sleep . thought of completing some of tha assignments last afternoon since there isnt lesson for me but i felt too tired that i burnt tha afternoon sleeping like a pig till i caused Adlee to be a little pissed off for not picking up his calls nor replying to his messages despite agreeing to meet up . still met him though last night around eight plus at his area for a drinking session including his friends plus brother too till midnight before he sent me off . ark ark ark .

lesson ended so much earlier than usual that in some manner i felt that im gonna get bored since its just one in tha afternoon . planned to meet Zakiy as he ended lesson at one too then off to Pan Pacific Hotel to chill but i felt kinda sluggish to head there so i initiated to help out in Last Minute Production since Zeeq & Haikal faced some major obstacles . had a smoke break session at tha coffee shop before filming started around three till it all ended around eight then off to tha lab since those lovely boys had to finish up on tha editing .

till tha upcoming post & Good Night , readers !
thanks Love for your concern . i miss youu & i miss us too .

LIFE HAS TAUGHT ME TO RELY ON MYSELF

2010-01-24T20:53:00.001+08:00

i hate school for bombarding tonnes of assignments despite a couple of lessons left for each module before this semester comes to an end . class field trips held for certain modules are imbecilic to me for tha reason that i didnt benefit a single damn shit out of those hours of sauntering but i felt more sluggish instead till im reminded to get those ludicrous stuff done .

yes i selalu marah2 you , bt seriously deep in my heart i really care and love you . you tu kepala batu bobal selalu nak menang ! cara you dah tak the first2 you always msg me . you keluar, dah balik tak bilang. keluar dgn sape pun taktau nak bilang! sort siak ..

I WILL UPDATE THE TITLE FOR THIS POST

2010-01-16T15:39:00.034+08:00

thought of going partial again for lesson last afternoon but i managed to remain in tha classroom till tha end of tha third meeting . i initiated to drag Adlee to go to tha clinic since his condition isnt getting better to tha extend that he coughed up blood but he fell back asleep due to feeling too anemic . i had tha intention to help out some classmates of mine in their production after lesson since i thought that i didnt got plans but i had to rush home to grab something that i had forgotten to bring it along . left tha house again a couple of minutes before eight then off to transfer some stuff to him before slacking alone till one this morning that made some of them felt kinda troubled or so .

St James with Zakiy & friends or
drinking session with Matin & Danny later ?

&imissyouuexboyyfriend!

NOW I CANNOT GO ON WITHOUT YOU LOVE

2010-01-14T23:33:00.007+08:00

attended lesson this morning for tha first cum second meetings aftermath headed off for a smoke break at tha usual spot before going partial for tha third meeting due to feeling rather slumberous since i didnt get to sleep last night . reached home around one plus before going out again to transfer some stuff to Adlee Blake since he needed a little help at that point of time but he fell asleep then . got back around half past three through that i managed to get some sleep for a couple of hours till this stomach hurt a hell of a lot due to menstrual cramps that i couldnt continue to sleep.

Your kiss , your smile , your mind
You're sunlight in my eyes
I miss your breath on my neck
When we whisper in the night

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
& find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked , I cant fake it
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do

Youu dont realize how much youu care about someone until they dont care about youu .

DEADLINE FOR SUBMISSION OF PD REVIEW 1

2010-01-06T15:23:00.009+08:00

Deadline for Submission of G903 PD Review 1 is
5:00 pm this Thursday , 7 January 2010

test is starting in about an hour time but this freaking laptop is going insane that keeps on prompting to reboot . i so need a break lahh . sibeii .

14TH MONTHS OF KNOWING & 9TH MONTHSARY

2010-01-03T11:34:00.057+08:00

Happy 14th Months of Knowing Youu &
9th Monthsary , my WanNOnly Horny Bby !

I hate it when we fight , because I know deep in my heart how much we care for one another . It is silly , when you think about it that two people who love each other should have such a hard time getting back on the right track . I want so much for us to listen openly to each other & focus on what brought us together . To get past the hurt & tears to the hugs & kisses , beyond misunderstandings to forgiveness . I am more than willing to try & I hope you are too because when things are right between us , life couldnt be better . I cannot wait till we are back enjoying each other again .

COUNTING DOWN TO JANUARY THE THIRD

2010-01-02T20:00:00.029+08:00

its eight sharp on tha time on this screen . four more hours before midnight strikes apart from insinuating that its another month tha both of us had conquered together since this relationship blossoms despite those numerous brannigans . its kinda dashing though that i might be able to meet him in tha afternoon for just an hour or so but that is if he happens to not be still sleeping .

im done for this post & till tha upcoming one ..

im sorry , Boyyfriend & im hoping to meet youu tomorrow !

I WILL UPDATE THE TITLE FOR THIS POST

2009-12-31T16:38:00.006+08:00

im sure that some are kinda feeling steamed up for its just hours more to a brand new year but im part of them to be apathetic that this year is coming to an end . one of tha reasons is due to school for being such a bitch to bombard tonnes of assignments during these couple of weeks of vacation causing me to get all tensed up . thank goodness that tha production for that short film is done at last after facing few major hindrances throughout tha process . one through . four plus three more assignments to go !

ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS YOU BABY

2009-12-25T19:52:00.031+08:00

I don't want a lot for Christmas . There's just one thing I need . I don't care about tha presents , underneath tha Christmas tree . I just want youu for my own , more than youu could ever know . Make my wish come true - all I want for Christmas is youu , babyyyyy .

ennui [ ahn - wee , ahn - wee ; Fr . ahn - nwee ]
a feeling of utter weariness and discontent resulting from satiety or lack of interest ; boredom

i guess this is just isnt tha paradisiacal period of time for me . last Christmas sucks but this Christmas sucks so much more . im like so damn fuxxxccckkkinggg bored at home but im clueless of tha place to head to since Cuddle Boo has ditched me alone .

till tha upcoming post & not forgetting to mention ,

Merry Christmas !

A CHARMING WOMAN IS ONE BUSY WOMAN

2009-12-18T12:40:00.004+08:00

Vibes 2009 @ Club Nova

Start Time : Friday , December 18 , 2009 at 9 : 00 pm
End Time : Saturday , December 19 , 2009 at 4 : 35 am
Location : 29 Carpenter Street

Production Practicum Problem 10
Filming for Hanging by a Thread

Day 1 : Monday , December 21 , 2009
Location : Changi Airport T2 , Clarke Quay ( tentative ) , Fort Canning Park

Navinn's Production & Photo Shooting

Wednesday , December 23 , 2009
Location : Republic Polytechnic , Admiralty Park

Production Practicum Problem 10
Filming for Hanging by a Thread

Day 2 : Thursday , December 24 , 2009
Location : Clarke Quay ( tentative) , Fort Canning Park

I'm busy . You're ugly .
Have a nice day !

LOVE LOVE LOVE I WANT YOUR LOVE LOVE

2009-12-09T23:17:00.005+08:00

i know karma is gonna get me back for being so cold
im tha big bad wolf im born to be & bad to the bone
if youu fall me im gonna tear youu apart
told youu from tha start

im only gonna break break your break break your heart
im only gonna break break your break break your heart
im only gonna break break your break break your heart
im only gonna break break your break break your heart

its tha month to be rejoicing in but im all stressed up due to tha need of getting abundance of things to be done in a short period of time . had a kinda photo shoot after lesson has ended around ten minutes past three for tha short film that a classmate of mine is doing on as part of his portfolio . then it happened that tha problem trigger for tha lesson on tha module Production Practicum last afternoon initiated us in doing a short film too but it damn fucking pissing me off to be in that team of bullheaded maniacs . bullocks .

stress alert
i need my honeybunch sugarplum pumpyumpyumpkin

I WILL UPDATE THE TITLE FOR THIS POST

2009-12-05T19:48:00.008+08:00

got a little caught up in tha rain last afternoon during tha outing to Singapore National Museum for tha lesson on tha module Expression of Form till it caused me to feel a little sick at this current state . flu is acting up again that adds on to tha cramp on tha back due to that fall i had last morning . at times tha pain just got so unbearable but some dread feeling is stopping me from going to tha clinic .

i really really miss youu & i dont know what to do about it .
i miss tha days where we laughed about nothing & just had a good time .

13TH MONTHS OF KNOWING & 8TH MONTHSARY

2009-12-03T13:41:00.004+08:00

Happy 13th Months of Knowing Youu &
8th Monthsary , Mohamad Ridwan !

Youu are nothing short of my everything & I love youu so very much .

COUNTING DOWN UNTIL DECEMBER THIRD

2009-12-02T21:21:00.005+08:00

two : thirty eight : twenty one
counting down until December 03 , 2009 00:00:00 .

SCEPTICISM IS THAT BEGINNING OF FAITH

2009-11-30T18:55:00.002+08:00

i do eat a lot but it just happens at times i feel stressed up about some stuff for i think that it could help ease those pressure im facing . that led me to be eating a plate of Rice with Chicken & Wedges during tha first break in school apart from that 3 mini donuts before going to school plus some junk food after school hours that complimented a number of sticks of Marlboro Ice Blast . so unhealthful .

lesson turned out to be kinda engaging for tha reason that it required us to use our original photos in replacing tha mundane manner of presenting a plot using just text . did a quite emotional but one magnificent job i think that i so need to thank Leandra Isabel & Zeeq Rentequiero for completing most of tha task . so Faith became that one particular subject among tha other numerous collection as part of our plot that i had to take up tha role as that chick married to Zeeq acting as tha blind author .

Faith is to believe what you do not see ; the reward of faith is to see what you believe .

till tha upcoming post & not forgetting to mention ,
Happy Birthdays , Ahmed Salahudeen & Nasuha Hisam !

YOU ARE STILL ON MY LONELY MIND BABY

2009-11-25T11:56:00.002+08:00

im so lost without youu
my love for youu is a journey ; starting at forever & ending at never
another mundane characterless lesson going on aside from that stammering facilitator keeps talking from time to time till i could get tired though im not listening to him . i guess im gonna skip tha presentation during tha third meeting later for tha first time since im so not in tha mood to be in class or school though team members are those cool ones like that sleeping dude of mine . thought of asking little cousin out to slack but she might still be sleeping i think due to not picking up tha call . fuck those shit lahh . i so need a smoke break this moment bitch .

till tha upcoming post & not forgetting to mention ,
Happy 20th Birthday , Bimbim Bimo !

I WILL UPDATE THE TITLE FOR THIS POST

2009-11-24T19:02:00.000+08:00

Having no communication with youu for awhile is like drinking coffee without sugar , it is not complete ; or should I say my life is not complete when youu are not here beside me .

it has been a damn hell hectic period of time for me since i last updated this blog of mine on tha afternoon that i turned legal eighteen . i had a memorable splendid fantabulous celebration in particular tha super unexpected plus last minute surprise that Mohamad Ridwan had set up for me though it turned out to be a little cocked up to him .

i thought that i got to meet him like usual since i need not go to school for there is no lesson but some things dont seem right till i think that i just made him a little pissed off like again for tha countless times . je suis désolée .

IM LIKE FINALLY LEGALLY EIGHTEEN DOHH

2009-11-16T16:00:00.006+08:00

i m l i k e f i n a l l y l e g a l l y e i g h t e e n

T H A N K • Y O U U • F O R • T H O S E • B I R T H D A Y • W I S H E S

MAGDALENA MARIE CHAN ♀ RIDWAN SWEETLOVE ♂ FAZLI JAMIL ♂ NASUHA HISAM ♀ HERLEEN TAHIR ♀ HAMBALI HANAFIAH ♂ SHASHA GONZALES ♀ TEERA DAWSON AZMIAN ♀ HAIKAL NAKAL ♂ WAWA SIOW ♀ VIVIEN YUAN ♀ BRUCE SEH ♂ SALIZA SAZZY ♀ NURUL 'AIN ♀ MASH TARO ♂ NAS KECIK ♂ FAIZ RONY ♂ FADD LEE ♂ AINI KEMETOT ♀ NURUL HUDA ♀ AZUIN DE CRUZ ♀ ROZLYN RAYMOND ♀ HAIRUL IZWAN ♂ BOY SUGAR ♂ GLADYS ♀ HAFEZ RAIHAN ♂ DANISH IFTIQAR ♂ KIM POSSIBLE ♀ NUR HAJAR ♀ DAYA LANEY ♀ DEEN HANEEF ♂ AIDIL ZULKIFLI ♂ MEUTIA JULIUS MINX ♀ FATIN TIZZY ♀ CASEY ♂ NISHA ♀ FITRIAH TAHIR ♀ ELLAKINKY AIKO ♀ QAYYUM KID JUNIOR ♂

my hot boy , see youu in half an hour time !
( im at home & waiting for boyyfriend | he psycho - ed me to not go school )

FOUR MORE HOURS & IM LEGAL EIGHTEEN

2009-11-15T20:00:00.055+08:00

four more hours sharp to midnight aside from turning legal eighteenth but she is left alone at home since half an hour ago . she did request him to require for an off so as to spend this night together but some things cropped up at tha last minute . another paradigmatic night ?

thanks for tha fantabulous time & Chocolate Cake + Dress , Mama !
thanks for those advance wishes Fai Piercing Kid , Rawzah Amir & Mash Taro !

HE SKIPS LESSON & HEADS FOR THE MOVIE

2009-11-12T13:50:00.059+08:00

its more or less ten more minutes before tha lesson resumes but i guess that im gonna be falling asleep about sooner or later due to tha damn cooling atmosphere in this classroom . Zeeq Rentequiero hasnt been attending school for tha past couples of lessons but still chooses to go partial this afternoon for a sort of nonsensical reason of going to tha cinema .

i miss mohamad ridwan !
my hot boy , meet mie soon ?

till tha upcoming post if there is time for mie to update .

TE ECHO DE MENOS MUCHISIMO QUERIDO

2009-11-11T22:29:00.000+08:00

te quiero con toda mi alma
te echo de menos muchisimo

( i love you with all my heart | i miss you so much )

I WILL UPDATE THE TITLE FOR THIS POST

2009-11-10T23:40:00.004+08:00

i spent a pathetic solid of half an hour just to search for a decent clothing to put on before heading off to school for that damn test this afternoon . kinda serendipitous that i could make it on time before tha test started at half past four sharp for tha reason that i left tha house a little later than supposed to be unlike Zeeq Rentequiero to be missing a double test .

till tha upcoming post & im off to rest soon ,
Good Night & Sleep Tight !

12TH MONTHS OF KNOWING & 7TH MONTHSARY

2009-11-03T14:52:00.014+08:00

Happy 12th Months of Knowing Youu &
7th Monthsary , Mohamad Ridwan !

youu are my past , my future , my all , my everything - my six in tha morning when tha clock rings & i open up my eyes to a new day . my laughs , my frowns , my ups , my downs - it is a feeling that youu get when youu know that something is true .

when i think of love i think of youu .

MY DREAM MY WANT MY LOVE ARE FOR YOU

2009-11-01T20:48:00.005+08:00

if tha mind keeps thinking youu have had enough
but tha heart keeps telling youu dont give up

1 : 03 : 11 : 08
counting down until November 03 , 2009 00:00:00 .
one - youu are like a dream come true . two - just wanna be with youu . three - boyy it is plain to see that youu are tha only one for mie . four - repeat steps one through three . five - make youu fall in love with mie again . it is undeniable that we should be together .

im starting to fucking freak out on going to school for a particular feline reason apart from procuring those consistent titantic grades since tha past four weeks of lessons but i sure need to stop procrastinating on getting started with tha damn blasted portfolio .

till tha upcoming post & not forgetting to mention ,
Happy 19th Birthday , Zul Kecyk !

THE CONSEQUENCES OF MY ACTIONS FOOL

2009-10-31T20:35:00.000+08:00

im sorry for hurting youu . im sorry i didnt realise why . im sorry for not understanding youu . im sorry for all those fights . im sorry for not listening . im sorry for not trying . im sorry for not caring . im sorry for not being there . im sorry for not supporting youu . im sorry i cried all night . im sorry your heart is lost . im sorry i couldnt cure it . im sorry but i will try now . im sorry if it is too late . im sorry for missing countless nights . im sorry for my swaying emotions . im sorry i wish things were okay . im sorry for being such a freaking idiot . im sorry but things were meant to be .

im sorry i love youu .
im sorry , i love youu .

Hugs & Kisses

HAPPY SEVENTEENTH BIRTHDAY MD KHAIRI

2009-10-29T00:40:00.023+08:00

Ayie Spade Monster Satsat Dragon | Kyyra - San
Happy 17th Birthday , Capoeira Hott Dude !

May youu live long & live happy . May worries , thoughts , angers & bad lucks remain away from youu . I wish youu good luck , a nice & lovely life to come , bright & joyful future & all tha goods that youu can ever wish or think off . I wish , may your dreams come true .

BOO FREAKING HOO YOU KIDDOS DITCH ME

2009-10-28T21:56:00.062+08:00

im bored exclamation mark times three

Sweetlove Boyyfriend is working from four till later night . Aidil Zulkifli needs to attend that rehearsal for Fight Club together with Fazli Jamil for he needs to help out with tha audio stuff on behalf of tha Electronic Music Production Interest Group . Azuin De Cruz wanted to head home soon after she had tag along to get those damn art materials at Popular . Haikal Harris left tha school for BBDC as soon as tha characterless lesson ended for his practical .

i just realised that i have got tonnes of things to complete .

kayy and ant sea see bee .

TOO TIRED TO UPDATE WITH A LONG POST

2009-10-24T08:32:00.019+08:00

half an hour more to go before BOYYFRIEND ends his shift since morning aside from flaking mie out at home attempting to complete that art shit for tha module on Expression of Form .

T O O T I R E D T O U P D A T E

I Miss Youu , Sweetlove !
Get well soon , Deen Haneef !

I WILL UPDATE THE TITLE FOR THIS POST

2009-10-15T11:39:00.005+08:00

To love is to suffer . To avoid suffering one must not love . But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer , not to love is to suffer . To suffer is to suffer . To be happy is to love . To be happy then is to suffer . But suffering makes one unhappy . Therefore , to be unhappy one must love , or love to suffer , or suffer from too much happiness . Fuck .

SUBMISSION OF G903 PD PROPOSAL DONED

2009-10-13T19:36:00.002+08:00

im feeling a little bit of stress free that im done doing tha damn proposal before its deadline for submission since i spent tha entire afternoon to complete it for there isnt lesson that i needed to attend but im feeling rather sickish since last night . arts related lessons for each module has been interesting plus magnificent though it could be kinda exhausting plus causing a hectic situation but getting a constant grade of B for those first problems is such an accomplishment for mie . thanks hottstuff .

im done for this post & Good Night , readers !
Mohamad Ridwan , i miss & love youu so damn much !

hugs & kisses & bites & licks

SEMESTER 2 OF YEAR 2 IN SCHOOL BEGINS

2009-10-10T20:49:00.003+08:00

school has resume but it is making life so much more stressful for mie due to tha need to complete tha proposal for submission before tha deadline .

a point to take note of that i aint gonna be updating this blog of mine as regular as possible due to tha hectic schedule despite getting a free time since im gonna be knocking off on just four core modules for this semester .

till tha upcoming post & im off to rest soon ,
Good Night & Sleep Tight !

11TH MONTHS OF KNOWING & 6TH MONTHSARY

2009-10-03T13:28:00.008+08:00

Happy 11th Months of Knowing Youu &
Happy 6th Monthsary , Sweetlove Boyyfriend !

i love youu because youu make me look forward to each day ? youu are my everything , a dream come true ? there are no words to express what i feel for youu ? there are no songs as beautiful as tha music that fills my soul when i hear your voice ? nothing moves mie like you do ? there are no days brighter than tha days i spend talking to youu on tha phone ? youu are my light in tha darkness ? there could never be words strong enough to express my love for youu ? i love youu with my soul ?

GOING TO BE THE ELEVENTH HOUR WORK

2009-10-02T18:42:00.004+08:00

three words - what tha faaarkk ?!
" school is reopening soon but im still not rushing on Portfolio though i so intend to complete that damn proposal as soon as i could due to that need to submit it on tha upcoming month . "

its such a disappointment to not be getting that one particular module i had opt for about a couple of months ago during tha selection period besides tha fact that i flung all tests but im satisfied enough to be in tha same class as some of those could be considered as close cliques of mine in that campus .

till tha upcoming post & not forgetting to mention ,
Happy 18th Birthdays , Nadiah , Nabil Syukri & Susyanti Anggrayni !

RAYA OUTING CUM CATCHING UP SESSION

2009-09-30T18:06:00.168+08:00

complications kicked off for tha umpteen times but it sure didnt break us off despite at times both of us felt jaded of those ridiculousness one after another till that blue morning seemed senseless for mie aside from him making that same night fantastic for us . ich liebe dich . xo .

i had to miss tha shisha session last night that Kira had suggested as a celebration since she has just turned legal eighteenth for tha reason that i had made an earlier plan to tag along dearest close ex classmates to their outing instead .

just a simple outing cum catching up session but tonnes of fantabulous moments captured from Tampines to Sengkang to Toa Payoh to Jalan Bahar to Jurong to Choa Chu Kang . not forgetting to mention those unstoppable laughter burst out since tha start of that breathtaking trip in tha afternoon to tha different spots in Singapore till hours before midnight .

thanks for making our outing a great one Afiq , Ain , Alireza , Haikal , Hajar , Ira , Ism , Layhuh , Mash & Millay Mills Zainal !

POWER OF PUNCTUATION

A woman without her man is nothing
A woman , without her man , is nothing .
A woman ; without her , man is nothing .

SO LITTLE TIME TO SETTLE MANY THINGS

2009-09-25T13:29:00.144+08:00

i aint that kinda person to go about apologising for not updating this blog of mine as regular as possible though i did attempt to post at least something in refraining from it becoming dead or blah blah blah like a certain group of human beings define it if he or she hasnt been rolling in their blogs . so here i am fonting characters on tha screen not just to kill time but i thought that i had bountiful of things to blurt out so as to feel a bit at ease .

it seemed to mie that tha fasting month had ended in a flash but i got to admit that tha celebration this time round isnt as happening as before aside from that one particular concern of getting to celebrate this occasion in that presence of inamorato for tha first time .

preoccupied dates ahead since one after another from that different four groups of friends cum campus mates been asking mie out to tag along in celebrating this occasion but i aint that sure if im going along to all those outings . true enough that im missing those great bunch of people but not as much as im missing dearest beau despite meeting him last night .

meetings for tha trip to Chiang Rai in Thailand that is gonna be in less than three months time are still on as usual but im starting to be so much of less interested in going due to each fouled up session that i had attended . tha team attendance besides participation in fact becoming poorer apart from half of that members choosing to pull out from this bunch .

school is reopening soon but im still not rushing on Portfolio though i so intend to complete that damn proposal as soon as i could due to that need to submit it on tha upcoming month .

till tha upcoming post if im not feeling sluggish to update .

I NEED YOU FOR THIS HEART ISNT STURDY

2009-09-18T20:58:00.069+08:00

Sentiasa menanti ketibaan mu
Sendiri ku menagih nafas diri mu
Namun kau memungkiri melangkah pergi
Selama - lamanya

Wahai cinta
Dengarkanlah rintihan ku yang ku rasa
Ku berserah untuk berpisah

Mampukah diri ku menempuh segala untuk mu
Biar pun ku terseksa menitis airmata
Bawalah jiwa ku agar ia disisi mu cinta

Belaian jiwa ini tiada yang tahu
Seribu janji - janji mengukiri ku
Rela ku menunggu mu walau bertahun
Untuk kita bersama

Ku berdoa mekar semua bunga cinta
Agar kita akan bersama akhirnya

heartbreaking it might be for that tragic incident to be happening for tha second time despite those promises after promises being made but i sure need to be strong enough in accepting tha fact that our relationship almost ended apart from cognizing that his feelings for mie has faded . im grateful for racking up another chance to continue pouring this affectionate feelings i feel for him in spite of hurting him time after time . not forgetting to mention that he made last night fantabulous for tha both of us during that four hours plus but im still missing him much .

I Love Youu , Boyyfriend !
Much misses , Deen Haneef & Teera Dawson Azmian !

I WILL UPDATE THE TITLE FOR THIS POST

2009-09-15T23:45:00.048+08:00

another calamitous moment of life happens to be making mie feel rather handcuffed to handle tha situation than to at least pan out our doubtful relationship for good . i realise tha apparent issue that this fasting month seems to pull us apart in a sense that arguments keep kicking off till it causes tha both of us to treat each other like perfect strangers due to his egoness besides this imprudent attitude of mine to not taking tha first step to concede .

i guess that i could still endure this stolid shit though it sure is heartbreaking for mie to see us ignoring one another just to surmount that damn threatening challenge i seemed to suggest but i got to admit about this needless to mention matter of still needing him like before . emotions are taking control of mie till i lose focus that causes mie to do stuff tha erroneous manner apart from tha fact that im starting to fall ill due to stressing up about us . headaches seem to irritate mie a lot but those spots on tha face besides rashes on these legs are excruciating mie .

both handphones outlast silent throughout since around eight plus last night aside from a couple of messages from cousin asking mie to tag along to Jurong Point to break fast since she had tha desire to eat some food there . i had that initial thought of asking him to come along too but i decided to drop tha idea due to him claiming that he doesnt need mie . so i left tha house around half past five aftermath headed off to get food soon enough before proceeding to chill out at our usual spot till some pretender freaks appeared . reached home couples of minutes past ten but its kinda distressing that there still isnt a call or at least a message from him that im so hoping for .

i know that he loves mie because he told mie so ? i know that he loves mie because his feelings show ? when he stares at mie youu see he cares for mie , youu see how he is so deep in love ? i know that he loves mie because its obvious ? i know that he loves mie cause its mie he trust & he is missing mie if he is not kissing mie & when he looks at mie his brown eyes tell it so ? i love youu .

till tha upcoming post & Good Night , readers !
!@#$%^&* arguing mode lahh . faaaaarrkkk btul .

THAT BESTEST BITCHIEST EX CLASSMATE

2009-09-06T19:34:00.013+08:00

Muhammad Haikal Bin Zulkifli , thanks for being such a fantabulous bitching partner cum brother plus sister from a different mother since tha past September 2008 . this might seem a little different due to tha fact that im gonna update about that someone in a more detailed manner or just a piddling change to consider in tha kind of blogging state for this particular post .

THIS IS HAIKAL NAKAL & MAMAN LEE . MAMAN LEE - FIRST PERSON I BEFRIEND WITH IN REPUBLIC POLYTECHNIC AFTER DANCING TOGETHER AT THA JAM & HOP LAWN PARTY HELD ON THA LAST NIGHT OF FRESHMEN ORIENTATION PROGRAMME 2008 AFTERMATH I GOT TO KNOW THAT HE IS THA BIOLOGICAL ELDER BROTHER TO ZEEQ RENTEQUIERO THROUGH FRIENDSTER WHERE HE HAD SENT A FRIEND REQUEST ON THA NEXT MORNING . ZEEQ RENTEQUIERO IS ONE OF THA BROTHERS FROM A DIFFERENT MOTHER TO ROMEO VALENTINO . SAPE EHQ NIE ROMEO VALENTINO ? MATAIR NUR HASANAH LAHH - SUMPAH AKU TAK KENAL !
i remember seeing his step cool face mintak kene campak dengan laptop Magdalena Marie Chan upon entering that classroom on tha first lesson for that module to tha sequel of Computing & Mathematics . sumpah aku benci tuhh module dengan facilitator die jugakk . so our bothersome facililator had assigned us to specific teams before instructing tha class to do a brief introduction to each team members aftermath proceeding to that problem statement for tha first problem . benci siahh kene assigned same team dengan tuhh mamat step cool but at last dapat tahu die peramah uhh lepas die dahh berbual but i couldnt speak in a proper manner due to that piercing on tha tongue till i talked like a dumdum techie during presentation .

i couldnt recall tha state that in fact has made us become closer lessons after lessons but i need to admit that Haikal is such a great companion despite his perangai macam Teletubies step comel mintak kene smack . his pragmatist attitude used to irritate mie in some means but clear enough that he cares about those friends he has including this used to be dumb blondie bitch .

Muhammad Haikal Bin Zulkifli
First , I like youu . Then , I love youu . Now , I am afraid to lose youu .
If youu do not send this to everyone on your list , youu will lose tha person youu love .
Sorry , I do not want to lose tha person that I love .
If I do not get this back , I guess youu are not my friend !
this has become a prosaism or might seem familiar to most people in particular if one has a Tagged account due to some of them sending comments to another regarding this nonsense till it leads to more people sending that mumbo jumbo comments to their friends sampai bile bile pun tak akan game . sumpah aku irritated giler siahh dengan comment comment macam gituhh .

AKU TAUU UHH KAUU SUKE AKU & KAUU SAYANG AKU GILER SAMPAI TAKUT KEHILANGAN AKU . AKU PUN SAYANG KAUU SIOL . TAPI TAK PERLU UHH NAK MACAM PAHAM STEP EMOTIONAL PULAKK . IRRITATING SIAHH - NABEII CHIBAII BTUL !

10TH MONTHS OF KNOWING & 5TH MONTHSARY

2009-09-03T17:02:00.008+08:00

Happy 10th Months of Knowing Youu &
Happy 5th Monthsary , Sweetlove Boyyfriend !

tha couple who fights tha most is most in love , it shows that they care enough to notice tha other one screwed up & to mention it to tha person so that they could fix it . when youu stop fighting , it could mean that youu stop caring .

Je T'aime , Mohamad Ridwan !